Caress My Flesh


There you are, dancing alone in a darkened room. Candles flickering with a glow, leaving a silhouette of another, lonely as you…

Whenever I’m alone
I feel like I belong
Solitude is my throne
My crown weighs long

Cry, cry cry, why?
Tears don’t shed anymore
They’ve all, dried dry
Like the last and the time before

I am a mess right, right now
Just can’t get by, this place
Stuck in my head, a vow
Never ever, love can embrace

Forbid, what is forebode
Swoon, in a room
Did as was foretold
Moon shadows strewn

Caress my flesh
Dust off the mist
The edge honed fresh
For a glide, round wrist

AntönyRös

Demon Within


The setting sun, comes with a fiery glow
Faster and faster, the horizon darkens slow
How the pain grows as light fades to go

Shades of blue, forms a line across the sky
Turns darkest, at a point, most high
Where evil lurks in wait to fly

The hour comes with howls through the air
Sending shivers from echoes tingling hair
White knuckle fisting, standing gloom and glare

Blowing wind, buzzes the ears
A tornado, shadows, spinning fears
As the demon within appears

Ghostly white, dressed in black
Hooded and cloaked front to back
Leading an army of ghouls that attack

The good and meek do not have a chance
Without sword, shield and lance
In the name of the Father, Son and Spirits fighting stance

Pulling and groping, sinking down
Hands like branches, vines up, from the ground
Pinned and crushing, lungs begin to drown

The anxiety flares, it starts to boil
The ache inside strained to toil
Strength of hope and faith like vinegar and oil

A battle that thrives in the heat of night
Sleepless, left weak, pray to see the light
East beyond the peaks, breaches with delight

Songs sung by birds awakening call
Lifting souls from a beaten fall
To honour a new days rise for all

The demon within, retreats to wait
For the sun to set behind heavens gate
To unleash the shadow of dreary fate

AntönyRös

Trying To Survive


I’m afraid to be me. So I pretend to be happy. So everyone sees what they want to see. A smiling face, approachable and kind. With a deep emotional secret of wanting to die. Relieve the stress, blind the fear, better yet, simply disappear. Wasting time, no sketches etched on a face of stone. No memories where tributes are laid. Those are left to the rich and famous. A cougar died today for trying to survive. He came to close to town and scared the citizens of a community. Authorities called, a rifle deployed. Down goes the cat, with a single bullet. I cried, uncontrollably cried.

AntönyRös

His Journal Bled, A Black Red


Page after page, hand drawn images
Shadows cast, lowly visages
Never the two, shall ever meet
Though desire craves to greet
Sharing tids, of bits, of pieces
A puzzle, begins to reason
The constant pounding as a boy
Beating drums to deaths door
A shell covers, his true form
Hiding from, a raging storm
Shades that fall, sight darkens
Blackbird sings, the night harkens
His journal bled, a black red
Thoughts, exploding in his head
Page after page, the final image
A moment frozen, captured a message

These are the words that end, a picture story
Created with a single colour, black only
Greys that lightly caress, the day’s that are blessed
Etched across a face, forever depressed
Lines that break tips, furiously scratching
Fibres, tearing the pages, screaming
A secret held from roving eyes
Reveals a truth, from constant lies
The joy of being lonely is a disease
It pains, it buckles the strongest knees
Repeatedly, to recite a prayer
For the courage to stand square
Eye to eye in fear, to bound us both
And pledge, a loves, never ending oath

AntönyRös

Unholy Chalice 


There was no word to describe the first breath taken
For it was pure, without sin, the air filling in
The taste of paradise was all they knew
No right or wrong, just living free
Temptation lured a heart of want
How could it be, to be tempted like that
To want more than what paradise has given
A single bite that tears the fabric of life
The swallow of knowledge to inherit the earth
And all that it has to create a path of destruction


Disobedience, the first of many
Skulls started stacking up, murder with malice
A new church sprung from the darkest depths
It had no name, until fire lit it up and everyone yelled, Hell!
The flames burned away the character lines on faces
Those that made unique in creed, colour and races
Here, where bone becomes stone faceless
The sky never seen, stars and moon forgotten
Cradled and huddled, spun in circles
A pedestal holds the Unholy Chalice


A monument of time, a collectors collection
Designing a temple that would hold the spirit
Of the damned and lost who gave up on life
Filling the cup, with blood, drawn by a knife
Slashing, piercing, controlling the pain
Fuelled by the dark from inside the mind
Depression is found hiding
Past, present and future, hurting
There is no heaven, no hell
The end comes with the final bell

Poem by Ax

Images by Aderhine DeviantArt

Cutting Deep


Thick and clouded, visions appear in rage shrouded
Misty air floating sublime, drifting slowing down time
A dreamers run, through the minds pun
Does it, for the fun of it
Fucking with your heart, tearing it apart
Messing with your head, as you lay in bed
The breathing that lives day to day
Comes to life in a most horrific way
Nightmares that turn on faucets
Naked in tub, surrounded by
candles
burning
nauseous
Holding a razor, waiting, praying…
Rainbow arches looking for the pot of gold
Pegasus comes through the air, all eyes
stop,
stare
and hold
Dark versus Light
Each with its own right
Created in our own mind
What do we find?
The root of desire
Some we love with water, some we set to fire
In the end it’s just a dream
A make believe, to make it seem
its
all
real
For me it ends, these dreams, caught in a fog
Running about hopping logs
Obstacles, always in the way of life
The mist blankets, all but the knife
Rounds wrists, with a glide cutting deep
The one truth that lives in both
day
and
night

Ax

Ashes to Ashes

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YOU ARE WORTHLESS.

i am worthy

YOU DONT DESERVE TO BREATHE.

the lord is my Shepard

HELL IS YOUR ONLY PLACE.

i will be free, watch and see…

Lord,
I kneel in Your light, I do not see
I yearn for Your love, I do not feel
I pray this once, this night to set me free
I ask for Your forgiveness, divine is what they say
I do not need an answer, for believing is the only way
I give my life, in the name of the Father
His to keep
ashes to ashes

Ax